I knew today was his birthday. I had even wished his twin brother Happy Birthday. But, for some reason I was not prepared when I opened my page on Facebook and saw where my daughter had wished her daddy Happy Birthday. I admit it, I cried. Everyone is gone today and no one has called so I have the peace of crying openly without anyone having to console. I miss him, but I know that he is okay and I am okay too. I am not sure of what my full feelings are, I try to write them, but somehow there are no words to express my loss or pain. We were not perfect, but we were as one as you can get.
Happy Birthday my Love, I pray that you can feel your families love still poured toward you.
I love you,
The Hummer
2 comments:
Well, I'm sorry I made you cry - didn't mean to. His birthday is hard on me - it was last year too. After Brandy's comment, I am wondering f it will ever be easy.
I'm still angry over the time he told me there wasn't anything to live for other than the grand kids. This experience has taught me to realize that no matter how old my kids get, they must always be in my foremost thoughts, because even after you reach adulthood, it still hurts. So foolish.
I'm glad I didn't call then. I thought about it, but decided not to. Yep I'm praying that he can be there Saturday, but I know he's busy,so I'm just praying :)
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